April Fools'? Not.

My phone was constantly ringing while I was inside church. I figured my classmate just wanted to chat. It's after all the beginning of our spring break. I didn't bother listening to her voice mail message, and just called her back. I was pretty surprised to hear what she had to say. She said one of our classmates committed suicide last night (God, it's so hard to type that.) I immediately asked her if she was pulling an April Fools' prank on me, and that this wasn't a nice joke. Well, news to me.. It was true. *insert all expletives here*

Why. Why why why didn't anyone notice that she was depressed. Some of us actually did notice that she lost a whole lot of weight (she said she was bulimic before) and she looked very haggard. We figured it was just stress from school or some other thing. But sh*t nalang talaga. Why.

The only fond memory I have of her was on our day for CPR training. She was actually my first friend in nursing school. We were together the whole day. She showed me where the train was from the hospital, and we took it all the way home together. We were never in the same class or clinical group together. And one day she came up to me and said hi and that we never got to talk after that day in CPR coz we never got the same clinical professors. But somehow you know, it tugs at my heart. She was young, possibly younger than me. And she had so much ahead of her. Hell, we are graduating this semester and pretty soon we were all gonna be nurses.

But shit talaga. Whyyy. This was so unexpected.

Starting today, I think I'm going to make extra efforts to extend a helping hand and a listening ear. These things could've been prevented had she had someone to talk to. :( :( :( So friends, give those you feel are depressed/sad/whatever a word of encouragement, a huge hug, and possibly a heart-to-heart talk over coffee. Or something. Just let them know they're loved.

God bless her soul. :\